It’s All God’s Play
By Peraim Kaur Khalsa
Yogi Bhajan once said, “Life is like a movie. You get your soda and your popcorn, you take your seat, and you watch the show. You don’t get up and start running with the horses.�? It made me laugh, visualizing myself madly galloping around the local Cineplex, popcorn flying and soda sloshing, as the audience looked on in perplexed amazement. But there are days when I feel I’m doing exactly that.
When I first heard this quote that “life is a movie,�? it got me thinking about my compulsion to always be busy accomplishing. It was impossible for me to just sit back and “watch the show.�? To prove my worth, I would produce something or other that other people could admire and pat me on the back. Then I could feel worthwhile. I could feel “accomplished.�? I have since learned how it doesn’t work that way. It’s something we learn at an early age, that we are loved not for who we are but for what we do. So we learn to perform for love and approval. When you were growing up, did your mother or father ever say, “After all I’ve done for you, this is the way you behave?�? Or maybe you’ve even said it to someone else. We are taught to compare our accomplishments and measure our success by an external yardstick. How can we not find ourselves wanting? We have all seen that when people invest so heavily in their accomplishments they become territorial and insecure about other people’s talents and abilities. They need constant reassurance and acknowledgment. Once we get on that treadmill, it is very hard to get off.